Life is going by in a blur. I hate this fucking computer, it gets slower day after day. Anyways, life is still weird. I get up day after day and go about my daily routine. I am behind in my studies and didn’t do very well on my first 2 midterms. Day after day I procrastinate and am not using my time efficiently. A big culprit is this computer. I’m always writing e-mail or playing online. I just got done studying for my stats midterm tomorrow and I’m still not ready. But I just couldn’t take it anymore and will get up to study more tomorrow.
I just wish I could get into the groove that I had before. It’s so hard to get back into the routine of studying. I’m not infatuated with Laurel anymore and we are just good friends. She came over two nights ago and we had a good time. She stayed pretty late and I only got 3 hours of sleep. Yesterday I worked out pretty hard and my body was just exhausted when I went to bed. But I couldn’t sleep and would wake up sweating. Now I feel like complete poop. Days are going back so fast and the way I view things or my consciousness is just weird. I just wish I could be normal again. Hopefully this is just weird thinking because I feel so shitty.